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Sunday, April 26, 2015

Life In The Slow Lane

This will be a long blog about what is happening in my life recently.

The short story is I now have interstitial lung disease. The long story is coming to grips with it for the last six months.

It began last October or November with a dry cough. After 3 visits to the QuickCare in our area and a visit to my doctor and prescriptions with each visit nothing helped with the cough. My primary physician told me to go to the ER if my oxygen levels went under 90. They are better equipped to handle this problem than a doctor’s office. So one day I made a visit to ER as my O2 levels were dropping fast. Just couldn’t get enough air into my lungs. It went to 70 at the ER and my fingers and toes were turning blue. They admitted me that day.

Then they called a pulmonologist in to help me. He is a very kind man. After spending the night at the hospital I was released and set to a pulmonologist. After a consultation we determined I had interstitial lung disease. There are more questions about it than not. Not many cures even if they do find the root cause. In other words too many questions and not many answers. I just live with it and hope it doesn’t get worse. I never smoked more than the one or two cigarettes in high school to show me it wasn’t something I’d want to pursue.

I’ve had 3 biopsies in my right lung and they hurt a lot, mostly when I breathed. We’ll have the results of the biopsies in about another week. There may be nothing to do with it. I refuse to read the statistics about it as I don’t want to know any more than absolutely necessary. I’m in counseling with it and like the progress we’re making, like my counselor and all that kind of stuff. My only problem is I’m short of breath and tethered to air hoses for the rest of my life and I’m actually okay with that. Another great granddaughter is due in October and that brings incredible joy to my life at this time. I’ve always loved and wanted as many grands kids or great grand kids as possible. I love them immensely and they bring great joy to me and my hubby. And my current 3 grand boys and 2, soon-to-be-3, great grand girls keep us loved and entertained well.

We know where we’re going as we’re religious and there isn’t enough “convincing” in the world to convince our family otherwise. We’re fun-loving Mormons.

I now await the final results on this disease. I live normally, just more oxygen flows though tubes in my nose. I still go out with friends for lunches and sit around and hoot when they show up concerned about me. I have the best friends anyone could hope for in this life. I also have that new Lexus hubby bought me as a total shock but a great one for me. I’m still very humorous and cute and lovable. Nothing has changed about me except my lungs are compromised.

The day I returned from the hospital I called a friend and asked if she could secure an angel food cake for me. She was over in 20 minutes with an angel food cake, strawberry glaze, fresh strawberries and whipped cream. She came in. I tucked a towel under my chin while laying in bed. She fed me slowly and stayed and talked to me for a couple of hours. What I didn't know until after she sat there, fed me and kept me company was that she had a family of 8 in our ward over for dinner that night. When I called all whispery-voiced, she dropped everything and told them: "Gotta go. It's Connie." And then she headed to the WalMart store and then my house. I was stunned when she told me she left them all there, her hubby and 3 kids and the family of 8 to fend for themselves when I called. I knew then why I loved that woman so much. I'm 30 years older than she is, but her physical problems, in all their immenseness, have yet to be determined and she's a young-ish mom of 3 teens and in worse health than I am, compromised lungs and all.

Then the next day, a friend came over, crawled into bed with me and we talked for a couple of hours. Her kids call me Miss Connie and my hubby Mr. Connie. I call them Miss Lainey, Miss Emma, Miss Sadie and Miss Avery. The darling boys are Mr. Miles and Mr. Graham. She's from California and her hubby is from this area and decided to set up his practice here, which is good since she's become so special to me. She's also a super person.

My first shower a week after the surgery put me in a very deep sleep for a couple of hours. It was that taxing. Hubby takes care of most chores now. We'll see how it goes when I get the results back from the doctor in a few days.

I am going to continue posting, just not on a regular basis. I love doing this. It gets my brain functioning, keeps me young and gives me something I can do at home. Another dear friend has other things for me to do from home also. I'll do what I can. I'll work around the lungs, lunches and visits from kids and grand kids. I cannot just do nothing. I have to stay somewhat active, as much as is possible. I'll turn the dirty chores over to th' Man! He can handle it and he CAN handle it.

This is one of my favorite designs for a house. I loved everything about this home when I first saw the photo—furniture, floors, sunlight streaming in, kitchen, chandelier, just everything.

Nothing picks me up like colorful flowers.

And, yes, this would be fun to have in my home also.

Thinking of making some pretty pillowcases. Yes, seriously, I am! Just want to do something around here lately.

This is adorable but just too intense for me to make right now. I'll be doing simpler things from now on. I have a request if someone can help me. I want a pillow made from a drop cloth with stenciling on it and a self ruffle. Does anyone know who might be able to make me a pillow for a living room chair with my requests? I do NOT want to do it myself. Recommendations will be greatly considered.

One of the most vibrant bedrooms I've ever seen. All bright reds and comfy chairs. Love the drapes especially. Very cozy room.

I have never seen a blue and white kitchen I like more than this one. It is just gorgeous!

The top pillow is what I'm requesting earlier in this post.

And this tassel? Oooh, be still my heart. It's so adorable. Now I'll probably be on a quest for tassels also.

The black flowery fabric on the bed is so beautiful paired with the other elements in this room.

What a great bench for an entry way. Hmmmm, I actually just had an epiphany looking at this photo.

Love this chair and its fabrics. Look at the drape pulled together also. Beautiful.

Another room that speaks to the aesthetics in my heart. Love the pink French wicker chair, pink and green drapes.

What a great entrance! Says it all in understated terms. Gorgeous.

See what you can do so easily to add a bit of drama and flair to a room. Just put tiny cups in a glass jar. I'll get on that within the hour, trust me.

Too tired to proof this. If there are any mistakes I'll correct them later.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Whether to Continue Blogging

Don't get me wrong. I absolutely love blogging and may continue, but very infrequently. And I have been remiss lately due to some health issues. You can view the story here. No one would guess by looking at me I'm so sick. I am on oxygen now and that's the only way to tell there is something the matter. When I sheepishly asked the doctor, a pulmonologist, if I could now get a handicapped sticker he said I qualify more than just about anyone he's seen. How's that for cheering up? I have not let this get me down and out. I still shop and go to lunch with the girls, my support group. One of them actually has a degree in grief counseling. I couldn't have picked a better friend! I'm also going to counseling simply because of depression. I love counseling!

And now for an update.

I have a date with a thoracic surgeon in a week to set a date for a biopsy. We've determined I have interstitial lung disease. If interested I've provided a link to the Mayo Clinic about this disease so you can see what I'm going through. I'm optimistic by nature but I'm also realistic. I'm scared and have shed enough tears to fill a sink. But I have a good support system. Anyway, here's something else.

Last Friday my hubby had a meeting in Boise he went to about model trains. He loves anything regarding trains. In fact, as I sit here composing this post he's watching an hour long video on the history of trains and how people love them.

When he got home he came to me here in the computer room and said there was a car in our driveway. Baffled, I followed him to the garage and looked and told him I had no idea who it belonged to and I had no one in the house visiting me. It was parked behind my Camry when we opened the garage door. I looked at him and he said, "It's yours. I bought you a Lexus." I was absolutely and I mean absolutely stunned and immediately started bawling. He hauled me out to see it and then took our old Camry to the dealer to turn it in. We've bought our last 2 cars from them so they're familiar with us and a friend is the Sales Manager there.

He said, "I know this is your dream car and you're worth it." This is a phrase I use with him when I'm buying perfume, makeup and sheets. "I'm worth it." He made a dream come true. I'd never, ever have guessed he'd do something like this. Here I am with a relatively short expiration date and he does this!

This truly is my dream car. My kids have luxury cars also—Mercedes, BMWs. I love the feeling riding in them, to say nothing of how we are treated when we drive up to a restaurant or hotel valet service! Of course, now that our daughter and her husband are planning on moving to Oregon, she's interested in trucks! I hate trucks!

Anyway, this sweet surprise is fully loaded. Wide angle video screen on the console for backing up, Sirius radio, heated and air-conditioned seats front and back, "no key" entry, just carry a little piece of electronic metal in my pocket, GPS, heated side mirrors, cherry red wood (bamboo! Toyota is innovative in using things that don't disturb the ecosystem too much) on the console, doors and steering wheel, windshield wipers that automatically come on when it rains, sun roof, automatic seats adjustable for the 2 primary drivers, auto-detection for tailgating, and so much more. Hands-free phone system, which I probably can't use since I don't have and don't want a smart phone. Hubby said it was fully loaded. I believe him. It'll take us several days to get used to it and can program every single thing that can be programmed and familiarize ourselves with its features. Lexus has been known for getting 500,000 miles easily on their cars so this is my forever car.

This is the Lexus. I am absolutely loving it!

Back view.

Side view.

The interior. It looks very red but it's a cherry red wood. It is absolutely stunning.

Here shows it on the console, steering wheel and the doors.

Now you can see my storage in the garage. ;-)

Here it is in our garage.

I'd love to have this roominess in my kitchen. I might cook more...maybe.

Don't you love the red toile and white dining chairs? My granddaughter just bought a new breakfast set and it has light chairs. Light chairs with a 5- and 3-year old?! She had towels over it. I explained plastic would be better. She could just wipe the spaghetti off of it instead of washing towels. She quickly agreed and found plastic. Gotta love a granddaughter that listens to her Nana!

I like those 2 chairs and ottoman. Those kind of chairs are very good for the body, too. I sit erect now because of spine and leg problems. This was a requirement from my chiropractor. Recliners are the worst thing for a body.

I'd make one but I have no idea where I'd hang it. Those little striped bulbs are adorable. I'd like to find some of those.

My kind of evening bag.

One of the cheeriest kitchens I've ever seen. All pink and red.

A beautiful entrance to a lovely home. Elegant.

I love how some people combine antiques and glitz/glam together. It's what I do and I love the look.